Sunday 13 November 2011

My birthday weekend

Wow,,, I didn't want to come this weekend but I must admit, I've had a great time.. Wine, champers, lager, nibbles cake etc..
& a wonderful meal last night

I've really missed my best mate & feel like he is drifting away, it leaves me with an ache inside..

Friday 14 October 2011

Life begins in 6 weeks

Eeeekkkk only 6 more weeks until my birthday... Time to set new targets, I mean after all it's the start of a whole new chapter in my life.
WW is going to be my main allay in this as getting healthy is the goal...
In 6 weeks time I plan to have lost another 9lb, thus making my 3st loss by my 40th birthday..
I'm more focused than ever on the weight loss.. I'm already feeling the benefit on my knee, it was strapped up most of last year.. I also think weight loss will boost my confidence, it's been kinda rock bottom since the accident.

I have so many things on my mind at the moment, greatly impairing my sleep.. I'm so worried about my best mate, I want him to be happy more than anything, but sometimes I think his judgement can be a bit out.. But I am learning to stand back and just be there for him

Sunday 9 October 2011

Why me

Why is it in my life just as I'm getting back into being happy & positive there's always something waiting in the wings to kick me in the teeth..
There's loads I should be writing & I need to get it all out of my head. However the stuff that's in there now isn't for the world wide web, so that will be going in my journal,
As soon as I can stop crying that is as j don't want to make the pages soggy lol

Thursday 6 October 2011

Dizzy diet bird....

Right my bestest Girly friend finally shouted at me enough for me to throw out the scales... Yes I was that personthat was jumping on the scales at every available moment.. I think I've left footprints on them..

Well after all my panics & griping the end result wasn't that bad.. I even smiled, mainly as I'd braced my self for much much worse.. 2lb on is ok, after all i had lost 6.5 last week.. My home work for the week is sort cupboards.. Weigh, track weigh, stay of scales & be positive... I can do this, I'm going to be the stunning girl on the WW mag cover, I'll have hit target, told MS who was in charge & survived a nasty car crash..
But the most special thing about it is I'll be sharing the cover with Caz as we would have done this together.....

Wednesday 5 October 2011

MS & Me..

MS has reared it's ugly head today.. Left hand has been very shaky..
I'm new to blogging and not really sure what to put..
Maybe it could help me nightmares & demons lol