Why me

Why is it in my life just as I'm getting back into being happy & positive there's always something waiting in the wings to kick me in the teeth..
There's loads I should be writing & I need to get it all out of my head. However the stuff that's in there now isn't for the world wide web, so that will be going in my journal,
As soon as I can stop crying that is as j don't want to make the pages soggy lol